March 24th:
Total Screentime: 12 hours, 59 minutes
Phone Screentime: 3 hours, 31 minutes
Computer Screentime: 9 hours, 28 minutes
Problems:
- Social anxiety
- Same problems aforementioned
- Sometimes I rationalize away doing the right thing, so as not to do the right thing, or I pretend to forget what I am supposed to do (like today I rationalized not asking a girl out, and pretended not to remember my goals).
- I acknowledge bad things and keep on doing them afterwards, like watching Netflix while or after writing this.
- Desires do not equal actions right now
- I often act on emotions in regards to being disciplined in studying/working
Good strategies:
- Identity change
- Discipline is choosing the future you want over the feeling you have
- Knowledge multiplies the worth of your time
- A way to move on from wasted time: Acknowledge "That phase existed", Extract "These mistakes were made I won't repeat", and Redirect "From today forward, I operate differently"
- Make your spoken word just as good as your written one
- Have corporate-level discipline in some ways, universe-level discipline in others (see the Chat GPT for this)
- Maybe pretend you are being watched/zoom group study/zoom room
- Detachment (like Jocko Willink level detachment)
- Act like professional (doing things excellent even when they are tired) instead of amateur (doing things generally only when inspired)
- Act like adult (making plan and sticking to it) instead of like a child (doing what feels good).
- Become more conscientious
End of preliminary data obtaining section. Plan for change is being created. Stand by. |
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March 23rd:
Total Screentime: 10 hours, 58 minutes
Phone Screentime: 2 hours, 8 minutes
Computer Screentime: 8 hours 50 minutes
Identified Problems:
- Using the internet to alleviate social anxiety symptoms from social interaction or a lack thereof.
- Isolating in a study room and studying for long periods of time with internet distractions.
- Horniness
- Maladaptive daydreaming/internet bad habits while at the dinner table, which include walking around with headphones on, listening to music, and engaging with exciting content.
- I keep reactivating TikTok, rationalizing the price is worth it, or not thinking about what I am doing as I do it. I almost entered this entry point before activating TikTok, which means I would have done more work to reactivate it. Additionally, the reactivation of TikTok for productive means typically doesn't work well, but I want to make it work.
- I still listen to YouTube/TikTok/Instagram/Netflix/Spotify while filling this out, possibly altering entries.
Potential strategies:
- Can maybe not think too much in regards to ignoring impulses, like I do when giving in to them, to prevent rationalization in regards to giving up to my impulses.
Next period of report: March 24th
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March 22nd:
Total Screentime: 10 hours, 16 minutes
Phone Screentime: 1 hour, 41 minutes
Computer Screentime: 8 hours, 35 minutes
Identified Problems:
- Loud parents/hectic household/nagging parents
- Incel ideology/relationship troubles
- Anger-inspiring sayings (like on Reddit, where you ask for help)
- Binging on Netflix and inability to stop watching (or feeling like I am unable to stop watching).
- Anger towards my father and mother.
Potentially good strategies:
- Being out of the house for as long as possible
- Joining some sort of club in order to get friends or a girlfriend
- Stay away from social media, Reddit, and Netflix (altogether or for long periods of time/only visit sites during certain times/periods).
- Tap into dark/evil motivation: Like Jung darkness (to enhance work ethic, discipline, and accountability (for instance, my desire to go to the gym to get big and strong so I can't be intimidated).
Next log time: March 23rd |
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